Well, here goes nothing........
Just a little about myself. I have been a pastor for over twenty years. I served in and around the Midwest and in Pennsylvania. I am a recovering approval addict and religious hipocrite. I have been on a long, hard journey for the last year and a half. During that time I have learned so much about myself and why I had become the man I was. It was so hard to look in the mirror and see the man that I had become. I was so lost, so alone and so desperate to find a way. Because I had so many struggles in my life I was forced to either find a place of health or face a life of solitude and destruction. God put some amazing people in my life to help put me on a new path (Dr. Paul, Brad, Galen). These wonderful friends helped me to escape from the shame based life I had lived on for so long. I began to believe the things that I had preached for so long and yet did not think it was true for me. I discovered all over again the unconditional love and grace that God extends to each of us. For the first time in my life I was able to live free of shame and offer myself the forgiveness that I denied for so long. I am still on a journey of discvorey. Discovering who I am and how I fit in this amazing thing called the kingdom of God. Each day is a new adventure filled with joy and heartbreak. I have not arrived and I have so many questions. Thankfully I am in a community of Christ followers who are strong enough and brave enough to wrestle with the questions all of us have but are not allowed to express. Especially if you are in ministry. Many, like myself, have been trained to never show weakness or doubt. However I am starting to embrace the idea of being vulnerable, transparent and brave. I can't wait to see where this journey takes me. Hopefully there will be some who want to walk along with me and are brave enough to ask the questions and wrestle with their fears. So let the fun begin...................

Peace