Are you thankful?

As we approach the day of Thanksgiving I am sitting here thinking about things I could be thankful for. However, as I do I think about all of the things that have happened in 2008 and how many of them overshadow and darken a heart of gratitude. There have been many things that have broken my heart this year and left me wondering where the good in my life is? I have thought about this for a long time, maybe too long, and have thought how can God do as he promised and “work all things together for the good”? Many Christians typically use this phrase when they know someone going through an extremely hard time and they don’t know what to say. It is in these situations they say things like “God won’t give you more than you can handle” or “God must have something really good in store for you’ or one of my favorites “Good is good, all the time”. While I agree with all of these in principle, it is hard to find value and solace in these statements when you are broken and bleeding. It is in those “dark nights of your soul” when it is hard to see any good and be thankful. Don’t get me wrong, I have so many things to be thankful for this year; friends (love you more) , family, fighting cancer and winning (so far), I have a job I love, …..So many things. But even in the midst of these things I still find it a struggle to give thanks. Maybe you too have come to this holiday and wish it would just disappear or even better you would be able to just disappear. I know these feelings have been very prominent in my thinking pattern of late. However, the other day I was talking with a friend and I said something that I wasn’t sure I meant or it just came out from religious habit. I said something to the fact that you never know how something is going to turn out so you can’t allow it to steal your joy and gratitude. Who knows if that lost job will lead you to something bigger and better. Who knows if that broken relationship might lead you to a deeper dependence in God. The truth of the matter is we have no idea how things that seemingly seem bad in our life could turn out for the good. I think to the story of Abraham and Isaac. God had asked Abraham to sacrifice his one and only son, a bad thing. But Abraham knew that obedience to God was a good thing so he followed God. If you have read the story, you know that Abraham took Isaac up the mountain and laid him down to be sacrificed. But as Abraham raised the knife an angel of the Lord called to him to stop. The angel then gave Abraham a great blessing; “I will surely bless you and make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and the sand on the seashore.” You see, what Abraham thought would be bad (losing his son) ended up to be a blessing to him and to all of Abraham’s descendants. To me, one of the lessons we can learn from this is to never see something in your life and label it as bad and the end of your life. Only God knows what can be done with the pain and brokenness of your life. God is still in the business of giving us beauty for ashes. So if you are in that same place I have been and are down, depressed and alone. Don’t forget that the end of your story is not written. What is broken today may be the seeds of a great healing and restoration in the not so distant future. Stop labeling everything bad and good and allow it to be what it is. Find something that you can be thankful for today and know that tomorrow is a brand new day and the rest is still unwritten.

Peace,
Ralph